I am sitting at exactly 190 lbs today. I am ok with this because I know if I keep eating the way I have been, I should be at 189 by the end of the week. YAY! I'd be in the 180s again. Would LOVE that! I also achieved something big this week. Big for me anyway. I got my waist measurement down under 40 inches. I seem to carry all my weight in my belly, so it's exciting to be at 39 inches. I hope to get to 35 some day. I can't even fathom that. When I started this journey, my waist measurement was 44+ inches. 35 is my short term goal, but I'd like to get down even lower. Your changes of developing diabetes increases with a waist measurement of over 35 inches. So I am trying to get that down to under 35 so that my risk goes down. I do NOT want diabetes. Having to deal with all of that when I was pregnant was enough. I do not want to deal with it for the rest of my life!

194.6 lbs this morning! This is such a huge goal for me because I only ever remember weighing 194 lbs once! It was the time my husband & I decided to eat only fruit for days on end and I was exercising like a mad woman. It wasn't healthy at all. So I am proud of myself for sticking with this and making it to 194 the right way!! My points have been lowered now, so I'm finding it more challenging to stay within my range, especially when we go out or during special occasions, such as BBQ's. However, I am trying my best and that's all I can do. I'm staying away from things I really want like rolls with butter and hot fudge sundaes. I know I CAN do it. It's just having the determination to do it. No one seems to notice my weight loss. My mom said I look thinner, but only after I told her how much weight I've lost. My husband does notice. He hugged me yesterday and said I feel smaller to him. No one else has commented. It's a bummer. I'm officially down 20 lbs now, so I would think people would notice. Of course I am losing it slowly, so people may not be noticing due to that. Especially those I see on a regular basis. Still, I'm kind of bummed. I'm not going to let it stop me though because even if no one EVER notices, I still know what that number on the scale says and I know how much healthier I am getting just by losing this weight! Oh, and now my brother doesn't weigh less than me, which is MAJOR!! Only 6 lbs to go to hit my 10% (on WW) goal. I think when I hit that goal, I might buy myself a new outift. :o)

Another reason to lose weight....both of my brothers now weigh less than I do.

Another reason to lose weight...I have this disgusting infected hair on the under side of my fat stomach where it touches my body...right near my c-section scar. Ugh. If I wasn't fat, I probably wouldn't have that issue. Now...if my husband would STOP making these damn cookies!

My reasons for wanting to lose weight:

• Lower blood pressure
• Lower risk for diabetes
• Lower risk for heart disease
• Look good
• Feel good about myself
• Be able to wear clothes that I like
• Not have to worry about my fat roll sticking out when I sit down
• Not be the heaviest of my friends
• Not have to be worried about "weight limits" on things (trampoline, stools, etc.)
• Improve my sex life
• Not have to keep making that dreaded New Year's resolution to lose weight
• Be a role model for my kids
• Help inspire others
• Not be embarrassed at the pool/beach
• Decrease weight on joints
• Not be embarrassed about my size when I buy clothes
• Weigh less than I have in my entire adult life
• Feel confident in lingerie
• Not have to lie about my weight
• Live a longer, happier life