I am down 1 lb this week. That is better than I thought since yesterday I hadn't lost anything. I will take 1 lb. I wish it was more, but I will take it. Tomorrow is my official weigh in day, so there's still time to get down to 190. I would totally LOVE to see 190 on the scale. Today I am 191. You know, I still don't think it has sunk in that I have lost 23 lbs. That is a LOT of weight. I should be proud of 23 lbs. I still refuse to buy new clothes and I still can't see myself as being any smaller. It's very strange to me. If someone else had lost 23 lbs I would be so ecstatic for them. Why can't I be ecstatic for myself like that? It's very weird. If you look back in this journal, there was a time where I never thought I'd get under 200 lbs and stay there. Now here I am 9 lbs under that and I still have the same mind set. I need to learn to be happy with what I am accomplishing. It's so hard though. I feel like I have such a long way to go and that losing 23 lbs isn't enough since I have 21 left to go. *sigh* I need more positive thoughts in my head. I'm thinking of printing out positive sayings and reading them. Maybe taping them to my mirror so I see them when I'm getting ready in the mornings. Gotta get out of this mind set that 23 lbs is nothing!!